I’ve not been at school for a week and already I’m feeling lonely.
It’s really silly, because I feel like I have an over-abundance of friends. There’s always someone who wants to do something with me. But today I just had the most anti-social day and ended up thinking about home.
Don’t get me wrong: there is no way I would want to go back home, even to see my family and friends. There’s nothing for me there. But I miss everyone terribly. I think that’s going to be the hardest part in these months away. I’m sure I’ll be better in a bit. It’s just hard. And I feel like what inspired this sadness is the fact that I had time to log on to Facebook and see what everyone’s up to. I’d delete it if I could but that would just sever ties and not really solve the problem. I’ve realized that I have an issue with avoidance.
Tonight I think I’ll stay in and let myself be upset. Tomorrow is another day, and I’m hoping I’ll be happier.
Now to read this letter my mom wrote and included baby pictures in. I swear she’s trying to ruin me…